Bimbo

Cooked baked macaroni the other day. And I failed miserably. It is not like I have not cooked that before! I had, only like a million times. It was tasteless.

Again today, i cooked ayam paprik for dinner. Again, it tasted like crap! It tasted like DAUN ok! Too much daun limau purut. That was my diagnosis. I pitied Eica, having to eat the crappy paprik for dinner. And again, the same case as above, I have cooked paprik like a thousand time. It is like my specialty. Oh well, at least, I think it is.

And also today, I found out one of my white shirt that i loved got miraculously turned into green!! How? Stupidly, I managed to wash my newly bought green dress along with my newly bought white shirt which I only managed to wear once. And now, my white shirt is no longer white! Bohoo. Careless me.

What is wrong with me? I seemed to have forgotten how to do household chores! I forgot how to cook! I forgot how to wash! I feel like a bimbo. Has the 2 months summer holiday back home been the cause of my 'condition'? Honestly, I think it has. Hahahah.

September, come quick!

Missing whole loads of people. You know who you are.

XOXO

a&e rotation

I am starting my first day of Accident & Emergency Medicine rotation tomorrow. And boy, am I excited and nervous about it! I have done A&E a couple of times back home in Malaysia. Once for my Option and the second time for my Elective. Yeah, I enjoyed it so much that I did it twice. I guess I just love the adrenaline rush. The fact that we have no idea what could come through the doors. The fact that everything needs to be done STAT. The fact that every second matters. It was certainly an exhilarating experience to me.

From the next 4 weeks, I will be able to find out if A&E here is any different from A&E in Malaysia. Jihan said that it is. It might not be as adventurous as in Malaysia, that's what she said. Well, I will know for sure starting from tomorrow.

I am quite nervous as well. I have spent my weekend not doing anything at all. I also did not do any reading during my lecture week. I can only remember rather vaguely whatever that had been taught during the lectures. I seriously do hope they would not bombard me with much questions tomorrow. I am just about to start my rusty engine. It has gone quite rusty for 2 months now!!

And I do hope I get myself a nice SHO. And I do hope I will be able to get through it well, especially during the Ramadhan period. Oh Allah, I do need your help. Make me a stronger person please,emotionally and physically.

Back in sheffield

Hey im back. I thought I would be ditching my blog for good this year. but it turns out I still need my blog after all to rant all of my stupid, crazy and unpredictable emotions!

I am in my final year. Wohooo~! Crazy ain't it how time flies! I was talking to my coursemates this morning during the lecture break, reminiscing about the very first time we met. Funny. It seriously felt just like yesterday. And now, in a blink of an eye, 4 years had past. In a year time, insyaAllah, each of us will embark on our very own path of life.

I could not believe I actually got to say it; "I am a final year student". Weeee. Heheh. I longed for the time for me to say " I am no longer a student". Fuh. Imagine what that would feel like! Hehe.

Anyway, nobody is in Sheffield. Thankfully Muni and Atie is here to keep me company!! Eza is also still UK, so I planned to frequent her place to put this horrible homesick feeling at bay. Eza's leaving on 10th Sept. Muni and Atie are leaving on 18th if I'm not mistaken. That leaves me at least 7 days of misery before I got to smile again. Oh Allah, please give me strength..

I don't know what this year is going to be like. I am forcing myself to be positive. I am forcing myself to be happy. I am going to enjoy my final year. At least, I am going to try.

Ok this is completely a random entry. Anyway I miss ADAM & AQEF!!!!

*plasticcup* hehe

ciao for now

Is this goodbye?

I am going back home for my summer break tomorrow. And my feelings is all jumbled up.

Happy? Definitely. I am going home to my loved ones. The thought of seeing the familiar faces again never fails to bring a smile on my face.

And normally, that's it. That's it. Full stop. Period. I am going home. Yayyyy.

But things seems to be different for this year.

As much as I want to go back home, I don't want to go back home as much as well. Why? Because leaving for home this year means leaving my good friends for the past 4 years. Because leaving for home means goodbye.

I have been chucked here from KMB, not knowing a single soul. Alhamdulillah, by the end of 4th year, I've got myself a lovely group of friends. And I know I could not ask for more.

Eventhough we were not that close during our first years, our friendship seems to slowly bloom since then. It has bloom so beautifully that I don't want to let it go.

And now it seems like the time has come. It is time for us to bid our goodbye. They will be leaving me soon. Leaving me to survive another year of my very own final battle in Sheffield. By myself.

I will be alone next year. A fact that is still hard for me to grasp. I will be missing all of those laughters and dramas that we had. I will be missing the whole lots of them. That's a fact I know for sure.

Have a wonderful life, all of you. Till we meet again, insyaAllah..

Dah nak kawen dahhhhhh

(Subjek blog: Lelaki yang tidak memakai songkok itu)

Ohmigod. Cam tak sangka. Wa dah nak kawin minggu ni!!

That seems to be our favourite topic of conversation nowadays. Hehe. Kecoh. Memang kecoh. We have been talking on and ooooon about it eversince the first time he told us that he is planning to tie the knot. That was like, what? Back in November last year, if I am not mistaken. He told me via YM. Asking me to usha kasut Clarks kat sini. Nak buat hantaran. Sambil tersipu-sipu. Hehhe. That was when I found out he is planning to get married. And he told me keep it as a secret from the others for a while cause he said he is not ready to tell others yet. Amboi, kasut hantaran dah ready beli. Nak beritahu orang, tak ready lagi? Hehhehe.

Oh ye, "we" here is referring to me and my sisters yang jauh ketinggalan kat UK yang tak boleh join wedding Wa sebab Wa tak mau posptpone wedding dia even for a few weeks untuk tunggu kitorang pulang.

And, oh, Wa is one of our cousins. Our very very close cousin. And since we don't have a brother, dia macam sort of dah jadi a brother to us lah. A cool brother. A very cool one. Hehe. Bukan yang jenis control freak or whatsnot. Hehhe. Mintak lah apa pon, for sure dapat punya (tapi setakat ni, cubaan minta ampau dari Wa masih tidak berjaya!) A person yang never says No. Baik gila kot. Sentiasa redha dengan kitorang yang ngek ni. Hehe. Tapi takpe. Dia pon join gang kitorang. E-Remaja. Hahaha. Only we know what on earth that means. And now gang E-Remaja dah takda. Lagi-lagi bila ketua E-Remaja dah kawin. Bubar lah camni. Abis lah ahli E-Remaja lain. Terkapai-kapai! Ketua dah tak eligible dah!

Haish. And I am going to miss his wedding by one day. Wedding sebelah dia memang la tak dpt attend sebab it is this week. Wedding sebelah pompuan is a day before I sampai Malaysia. Argh. I know there will be pictures, but pictures can never replace the idea of being there on the wedding day for real.

Anyway, I know you might not even be reading this entry. If you are, abis la I . Hidung forver kembang la nanti. So cannot handle wan. Hahah. Anyway, congratulations mate!

Nerd

What's wrong with me? I am getting lazier and lazier by day.

I used to be the girl who can sit down and study for long hours straight without feeling bored or tired.

I used to be the girl who will feel guilty if I spend my free time doing something else apart from studying.

I used to be the girl who only took 20 - 30 minutes nap during the afternoon if I ever got too tired and woke up 20 - 30 minutes later and headed straight for the books once the nap time was over.

I used to be the girl who once refused to watch Anugerah Juara Lagu on the television because I convinced myself that it is not important, and it will not be tested on my exams.

Yes. I was nerdy and geeky. But I did not even feel that I am nerdy and geeky. I just feel that that was the right thing to do. That was what I was meant to do. To study. To excel in life. I am no genius. I know that. I need to work double as hard to achieve what I want to achieve in life.


But now, I am no longer that girl.

I am now the kind of girl who can only study for long hours when exam is nearing.

I am now the kind of girl who can only study for 1 hour at most (when exam is not lurking around the corner), and then easily become distracted with some other ridiculous, non useful, stuffs, like Facebook for instance.

I am now enjoying my life a bit too much. Huhu

I miss the old me. Sad, I know. I miss the old hardworking me. Because I know that I need the old me back because I just need the old me back.

Ok. Back to books. Not having exams at all this year is making me a slacker. huhu.

p/s: Gosh i sound like a weirdo. A nerd and a super geek. Hahaha.

Hoooooooome!

The summer break is the break that I (and I am sure all of the other students) look forward to the very most. Why? Because summer means home. Summer means family. Summer means friends. Aahh. Summer holiday is when majority of students will be flocking the airport to fly back home to our very own homeland.

The feeling when knowing that the date to go back home is nearing is just undescribable. It is more beyond excited. Secretly, if not outloud, we will be counting down the days. Every single day. Wishing and hoping that time will fly a bit faster.

I am in my 4th year and still, I am experiencing the exact same feeling that I used to have when I was in my very 1st year. Hehe. I guess the feeling never change.

Another thing that makes it interesting is the fact that we have to give gifts to those people back home. More like souvenirs from UK. Its not like we HAVE to. But it just does not seems appropriate not to buy them any. Well, that's just my thought anyway. I do it anyway because this means I get to SHOP! Hehe. It feels good anyway. To give presents to people. To see the anxious looks on their face, waiting to see what I have got them. The happy looks on their face when they finally got their hands on their gifts. That feeling is worthwhile. I feel like Santa Claus already, minus the beard and the belly. Hahah.

And now I am in my fourth year, I am running out of ideas on what to get them!! During the past years, I had bought them mostly shoes, handbags, purses, Sheffield engraved knives, Royal Alberts and stuffs like that. Now, I just am totally clueless what to find. Huhu. I am getting fed up of buying them the same things again. But, if I still do not manage to get them anything out of the ordinary, I might just have to stick to the ordinary then I guess.

Another week in Radiology. Another week in Nephrology. Another week of final lecture. And I am off home for 2 months. Excited? Definitely.